if it will float your boat

Don't be fooled by the face i wear,for i wear thousand masks,and none of them are mine.
Dont be fooled,for gooodness sake dont be fooled
i give the impression that i am secure,that confidence is my name and coolness is my game,and that i need no one
but dont believe me
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beneath dwells the real me in confusion,in aloneness,in fear.thats why i create a mask to hide behind,
to shield me from the glance that knows,
but such a glance is precisely my salvation.
that is,if followed by acceptance,if followed by love.its the only thing that can liberate me from my own self-built prison walls
i am afraid that deep down i am nothing and that i am just no good,and that you will reject me.
 and so begins the parade of masks,i idly chatter to you.i tell you evrything thats really nothing and nothing of what is evrything,of what is crying within me

please listen carefully and try to hear what i am not saying,i would love to be genuine and spantaneous,and me.
but you have got to help me,you have got to hold out your heart in your hand
.............................................................................................................................................to be continued.
i have always been daring,so immuned  and expressionless,i guess twas taken over by the movies which were much source of consolation and comfort,but i outgrew them,and started,my down spirals into drugs and ectasy of pleasures,sex and drugs,baaaaaaaaaaaad combination!i remember being called,big teeth,by my primary school teacher,and roar of laughter it brought evrytime,i was called,i developed a thick skin,and remember those wer days when,bracelet hadnt been introduced,and hiphop culture never had blings for teeth,i started getting back,and hitting those whom i had seen laughing,and i developed,the mask of violences and revenge.