baptized in dirty waters

One thing I have done is that I have been learning from many many slips. It took me several slips and relapses to learn. One thing i also basically do is to learn to accept the fact that urges and triggers won't accept us into eternity. It will reach a top level and then wear off, it's not worth giving into at all.  Been really busy,having alot in my plate, relaxing and enjoying today when things just trip out of their axis. Had some major triggers and lusts that was screaming at me about 1 hour ago. But I stood up from bed, got myself a shower and concluded that now when i soon finished 1/369 of my 369 day self recovery it's not worth going back to point zero. Slipping automatically puts me back to day 1. 

 Many people confess to the downward spiral of watching pornography. What starts with curiosity turns into a habit and then becomes an obsession. What starts as soft-core turns to hardcore. What starts as pictures on a screen turns to a desire to act out these fantasies with real people.true.pornography feeds a warped understanding of intimacy.. Pornography always costs somebody something. pornography, it is, by its very nature, exploitative and dehumanizing. If men want to stop being a part of the problem and starting being a part of the solution to sexual exploitation in our culture, then they need to stop buying into the glossy media that equates a person’s worth to their sexual prowess or the sum of their body parts..

No, not all escalate the same way, but research shows the more porn we consume, the more we want to consume it. You need to see that the path of porn leads only to more isolation, guilt, alienation, and pain. Whether single or married, such a reset to normal is the only thing that can ever equip you to become a pure, loving, attentive, sacrificial husband. But you already know you need to change. Few Christian men indulge in porn without realizing they need to quit. Every Christian guy who looks at porn wants to stop, but many of us want to stop just a little bit less than we want to keep going. The problem isn't knowledge-it's desire and ability. So sin prevails. Here's a promise. You'll never stop until you begin to see the monstrous nature of the sin you're committing. You'll never stop until the sin is more horrifying to you than the commission of the sin is enjoyable.I know that most men who battle porn understand the darkness that lies underneath the porn industry.  I would readily admit that it is horrific.  But that knowledge alone is not enough to cause them to turn aside from the web pages.

Porn wrecks your view of sex. 

Porn wrecks your view of women. 

Porn wrecks women’s view of themselves. 

The porn industry abuses women. 

Porn is a sin against your wife. . . . If you’re not yet married, porn is a sin against your future wife. 

Porn wrecks families. 

Porn is enslaving. 

Porn erodes your character. 

Porn wastes your time, energy, and money. 

Porn weakens your relationship with God. 

Porn weakens your service. 

God’s wrath is against people who use porn.

But many people know all these things to be true and still look at porn on a regular basis.  How can we structure our lives beyond just knowing these things to be true and actually fighting for purity from the lies of porn?